Breathe;
Walk through those doors.


If only things could be always this happy.
People change, and nowadays I just feel that A.F.F. wasn't like before.
Yesterday's get-together just suddenly made me feel really upset after that.
But I guess the rest of us have to overcome this problem together then.

The past few days down with the new choir allowed me to know more (nice/very nice) people, learn more (nice/very nice) songs and all. I'm not saying that the old choir was bad, just that it's kind of nice to be in a choir whose mood isn't always plagued with unhappiness, depression and loads of other shitty problems. The new choir doesn't have discipline problems (like rude people that go against the committee), attendance problems (like people who come and go as they like), morale problems and all others. It's probably different, a JC choir and a secondary school choir. People might hate me for having a change of heart (or rather betraying the old choir), but it's what I really feel.

Less problems, more happiness.

I enjoyed my 3 years and 7 months of singing (and others) in the old choir, and this choir is definitely one thing that kept me going in school when I wanted to die from academics. Being a resource manager cum student conductor cum section leader wasn't fun but it was rewarding in a way. I had initially rejected my role of student conductor very badly and took it as a blow to my morale/mental condition in the initial few weeks as I received loads of negative feedback from different people. To be honest, I really hated that post thanks to those issues that were going on and for a period of time I was really angry with Ms Ng (and whoever else, Ms Yin/Mr Loh?) for dropping me into that post. And I also thought Asaph was better for that post (really). But then later I realised I had no choice and the choir has to move on with the student conductor and so things became better.

The issues were resolved, Asaph stopped scolding me altogether, I continued to talk to Eeron in class, everyone was much happier. (I think this is the first time I'm addressing those issues?)

Conducting the choir had been fun, occassionally breaking into fits of laughter looking at their weird faces (especially for Cui Dong Cui), or cringing my face to ask them to follow my beat and not theirs (especially for Kasar), or just random moments when we really just couldn't put a song together (in this case, the notorious Ah La Mu Han).

The first song I taught the altos was Bai Fang Chun Tian in 2006's choir camp. The first song I played the piano for choir was Everyone Sang on a random Saturday practice when Abel and Jomel pulled me up to the front. The first song I conducted the choir was Adieu Sweet Amarillis. I was the one to end off the choir journey for all the Sec 4s (but only Asaph and Keith were the other ones present for the last time). There're still alot of other things, but that's all for now.

I'll never forget this choir. Thank you for the wonderful 3 years and 7 months.
How fast has time gone by? Even Mr Low's coming back next month already.

Even now when Mr Toh (and today, Jesmine) mentions Ms Yin to me, I think I miss everyone.
But now moving on to the new choir, I feel at home again.
(This has been too long a post, so sorry.)

Bakkutteh Aunty Gaga Simon Rachel Charmaine Seehow Jinyang Darren David Zhuohong Jesmine Kerlene Gabriel Chew Cheow Annie Olivia Monica Erica Intercoastal muscles Diphragmatic rhythm Solar plexus Kristine Melissa Wanlei Peipei Jean Huiying Lok sui tien Iddem dem mallida Yesterday Come go with me It don't mean a thing "Ms Yin's a mask-eteer"
These are the things (and more) I learnt in the past 4 days together(: